Calm

I have been extremely calm since yesterday.

The envelope of lab test results still left unopened on the table.

Refused to read it, refused to look at the ultrasound scan.

Looked at the $70 receipt...

What a joke???!!! Spent money to hear such a devastating news!

Today is the CVS test, results will be out in 2 wks time.
I still don't feel connected with Baby2.

Think I have given up!

Or am I in a denial stage?